Nowadays i feel like i'm getting more and more hot-tempered, as in muh pissing-off starter gets triggered very easily. People crack a joke, I smell insult; people laugh in a conversation, I see humiliation. Always at the get-offended-border-line.
Nobody's fault, but muhself.
I strive for the fullest, but its really hard to get exactly what i want. No, i'm not a perfectionist, i just want muh life to be better, i yearn to be acknowledged for what i've done, i urge people to love me more. I AM A FREAKING ATTENTION SEEKER WHO WANTS TO BE IN THE SPOTLIGHT ALL THE TIME.
And i guess i over did it. Once you crossed the boundary everything looks different. I hope it could, but deep down inside i know it'll never go back to its original state.
Time to go home, for some ego-adjustment haha.
I'm freaking tired, but i wont give up. I SWEAR.
Posted by Sue Yuin